I had an appointment with my Doctor today and while I was there I told her of the conversation Paul and I had had last night. Her response was very sweet. She reminded me that most people in Paul's condition very seldom get to or take the opportunity to express thoughts like that to their loved one. And, I was very fortunate to have had him do that.
That was a wonderful thought and I am so glad she helped me to see that. I don't feel so sad now. Instead I realize that was a real blessing.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
Alzheimer's Or Parkenson
This afternoon's visit to see Paul at Good Shepherd was a surprise and very difficult one. For the passed few weeks, Paul has not recognised me at all. And according to the nurses and workers, He has not been communicating or recognising them. But they all said he seemed to be comfortable.
Most days they wheel him into the TVroom. There are some really nice recliners. It takes two people to get him strapped up an turned around and down onto the chair. Once there he is very comfortable. His feet are up and he can really relax.
The nurses told me that a few days ago, he was sitting in the TV room with several of the residents, they were watching a old western. When all of a sudden he yells out "Stop all that shooting those guns in here before you kill so one!" The nurses are still laughing about it because he went right back to his silents and continued not to communicate any more.
I had a great surprise tonight. When I arrived they had just wheeled him into the dinning room for dinner. When I went up to him I told him 'Hi' as I always do and that I am Raenell. Which I have been getting a quite answer like Hi, or Good To See you. But not expression of knowing me at all.
When I tried to talk to he about watching the TV or what did he have to eat. He didn't seem to know at all. And that he didn't want to be bothered. This had gone on for several weeks.
However tonight he was in his chair up at the dinning room. They asked if I would like to help him with his dinner. I tried and tried, but he wanted very little bits. They had made egg sandwiches that looked really good,(he use to really like them) a small bowel of peaches and lettuce, sliced tomatoes and pickles. With milk to drink. He only nibbled at a half of his sandwich. He enjoyed most all of the peaches and he liked the pickles and tomatoes and a few potato chips. Most all of it was left, he didn't even want the very nice cooky they had backed.
He did however keep asking about our neighbors and how were they doing an how nice they were. And how much he missed me and how sorry he was that he had to leave me so soon. And that we had not had more fun time together. He started crying and telling be how special I was to love him like I have.
All I could do was tell him how much I loved him and hold his hands. And tell him how sorry I was and cryed with him. Holding is hands seemed to help them from shaking hard from the Parkenson.
When time came that I needed to leave, he asked me to rub his back a bit. He really loved that, and began to cry some more and tell me he really loved me,
It has been a very long time since he has talked to me like that. I almost wondered if he was trying to really saying good by. He also said something about seeing me again up in heaven.
It was really hard because it was as if he thought he was really saying Good By!
When I left there I had to go right over to my Weight Watch meeting. That was good for me. I got to talk to a couple of ladies my age that have had experiences with loved ones and were very nice to try to help me.
At least I didn't go straight home to an empty house. But when I did get home I wasn't really alone.
Snoopy and Charlie my little dogs were at my feet excited about getting scratched and petted. Thank goodness for those two little guys they always seem to know when I am down, and they try to cheer me up.
Most days they wheel him into the TVroom. There are some really nice recliners. It takes two people to get him strapped up an turned around and down onto the chair. Once there he is very comfortable. His feet are up and he can really relax.
The nurses told me that a few days ago, he was sitting in the TV room with several of the residents, they were watching a old western. When all of a sudden he yells out "Stop all that shooting those guns in here before you kill so one!" The nurses are still laughing about it because he went right back to his silents and continued not to communicate any more.
I had a great surprise tonight. When I arrived they had just wheeled him into the dinning room for dinner. When I went up to him I told him 'Hi' as I always do and that I am Raenell. Which I have been getting a quite answer like Hi, or Good To See you. But not expression of knowing me at all.
When I tried to talk to he about watching the TV or what did he have to eat. He didn't seem to know at all. And that he didn't want to be bothered. This had gone on for several weeks.
However tonight he was in his chair up at the dinning room. They asked if I would like to help him with his dinner. I tried and tried, but he wanted very little bits. They had made egg sandwiches that looked really good,(he use to really like them) a small bowel of peaches and lettuce, sliced tomatoes and pickles. With milk to drink. He only nibbled at a half of his sandwich. He enjoyed most all of the peaches and he liked the pickles and tomatoes and a few potato chips. Most all of it was left, he didn't even want the very nice cooky they had backed.
He did however keep asking about our neighbors and how were they doing an how nice they were. And how much he missed me and how sorry he was that he had to leave me so soon. And that we had not had more fun time together. He started crying and telling be how special I was to love him like I have.
All I could do was tell him how much I loved him and hold his hands. And tell him how sorry I was and cryed with him. Holding is hands seemed to help them from shaking hard from the Parkenson.
When time came that I needed to leave, he asked me to rub his back a bit. He really loved that, and began to cry some more and tell me he really loved me,
It has been a very long time since he has talked to me like that. I almost wondered if he was trying to really saying good by. He also said something about seeing me again up in heaven.
It was really hard because it was as if he thought he was really saying Good By!
When I left there I had to go right over to my Weight Watch meeting. That was good for me. I got to talk to a couple of ladies my age that have had experiences with loved ones and were very nice to try to help me.
At least I didn't go straight home to an empty house. But when I did get home I wasn't really alone.
Snoopy and Charlie my little dogs were at my feet excited about getting scratched and petted. Thank goodness for those two little guys they always seem to know when I am down, and they try to cheer me up.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Hot Days A Cool Week-end
The days have been very HOT lately. They have been advising that people stay inside if at all possible. Other than visiting Paul Saturday and attending Church Sunday, I have stayed in.
The visit to see Paul was different. For the past 2-3 weeks he has not been recognizing anyone, not even the nurses and me. He is just quite, basically no communications. Put he is eating. He seems very comfortable in the big lounge chair they put him in between meals. He was in the large TV room with other residence seeing the Old Western Chanel. According to one of his nurses the other day while sitting very quite, during one of the programs Paul haulers loudly "Stop all that shooting before someone gets shot in here". The nurses all jumped and turned around to see. It was their very quite Paul who had just yelled and said that.
They are all still laughing about it. They say he has not said an other thing since.
You just never know what to expect.
Because I have become such a stranger to him and there is no communicating, I have decided to go once every week for now and pick different days each week. Just to keep checking.
Going out in heat can really wear you out. So I sat down to watch a couple of movies I saved. They were on the TCM "Ma and Pa Kettle's new home" "Ma and Pa Kettle Goes to New York" and "Ma and Pa Kettle And the County Fair." They were made back when I was in my early teen years. I remember I thought they were funny then, but I wasn't sure I would enjoy them now. but I saved each one and enjoyed them beyond pleasure. I haven't laughter that hard in A very long time. They were great.
And on Sunday they had the Pionery's Day Celebration of 80 years of the Tabernacle preforming. I had to save it. I hope they put it on a CD. I had to stand and clap too! The last half of it I couldn't keep the tears from flowing. It was so awesome to be able to watch all that and followed by a wonderful talk from Mr. Hinkley to the youth in 1997. It would have been perfect for today.
After all of this I had received from NetFlix "Sleepless in Seattle" And I cried a bunch watching it to.
Well it all was very good and I got a lot done on an Afghan I am making for my big chair.
Tomorrow they are going to have the Funeral for Sister Marna Pratt. Some of the sisters from my Word are going to go with me.
Oh, our new Bishopric were all there and conducting to day. They are all very fine Men. It shows the Lord was involved with those callings.
The visit to see Paul was different. For the past 2-3 weeks he has not been recognizing anyone, not even the nurses and me. He is just quite, basically no communications. Put he is eating. He seems very comfortable in the big lounge chair they put him in between meals. He was in the large TV room with other residence seeing the Old Western Chanel. According to one of his nurses the other day while sitting very quite, during one of the programs Paul haulers loudly "Stop all that shooting before someone gets shot in here". The nurses all jumped and turned around to see. It was their very quite Paul who had just yelled and said that.
They are all still laughing about it. They say he has not said an other thing since.
You just never know what to expect.
Because I have become such a stranger to him and there is no communicating, I have decided to go once every week for now and pick different days each week. Just to keep checking.
Going out in heat can really wear you out. So I sat down to watch a couple of movies I saved. They were on the TCM "Ma and Pa Kettle's new home" "Ma and Pa Kettle Goes to New York" and "Ma and Pa Kettle And the County Fair." They were made back when I was in my early teen years. I remember I thought they were funny then, but I wasn't sure I would enjoy them now. but I saved each one and enjoyed them beyond pleasure. I haven't laughter that hard in A very long time. They were great.
And on Sunday they had the Pionery's Day Celebration of 80 years of the Tabernacle preforming. I had to save it. I hope they put it on a CD. I had to stand and clap too! The last half of it I couldn't keep the tears from flowing. It was so awesome to be able to watch all that and followed by a wonderful talk from Mr. Hinkley to the youth in 1997. It would have been perfect for today.
After all of this I had received from NetFlix "Sleepless in Seattle" And I cried a bunch watching it to.
Well it all was very good and I got a lot done on an Afghan I am making for my big chair.
Tomorrow they are going to have the Funeral for Sister Marna Pratt. Some of the sisters from my Word are going to go with me.
Oh, our new Bishopric were all there and conducting to day. They are all very fine Men. It shows the Lord was involved with those callings.
Friday, July 17, 2009
A Hurray Day!
I have for some time been bothered with a skin allergy. It was driving me nuts for a couple of months or so. Then a couple of weeks ago I developed some red spot on my eye lead, it was swollen and sore. So I finally went to the Doctor. She put me on some strong antibiotics and said it was a strep and could be contagus. So I have been staying away from everyone. But today I saw the Doctor again and she gave me a clean bill of health. So I can go over and see Paul tommow.
I haven't been able to go over there for almost two weeks. I have been calling and they have reassured me that he is doing good. They said they hear him talk to the TV every once in a while. They get a kick out of it.
Well I will see him tomorrow.
And some more good news the doctor said I lost three more bound in the last week in a half.
Hurray. It's fun when clothes that you bought not to long ago were slightly tight on you and now have become rather loose.
It's great not having my back giving me a bad time and my knee doing good. The Doctor is really encouraging me to get back in the pool and do some exercise and says it will not bother the skin rash. So I am going to try it out here again.
I haven't been able to go over there for almost two weeks. I have been calling and they have reassured me that he is doing good. They said they hear him talk to the TV every once in a while. They get a kick out of it.
Well I will see him tomorrow.
And some more good news the doctor said I lost three more bound in the last week in a half.
Hurray. It's fun when clothes that you bought not to long ago were slightly tight on you and now have become rather loose.
It's great not having my back giving me a bad time and my knee doing good. The Doctor is really encouraging me to get back in the pool and do some exercise and says it will not bother the skin rash. So I am going to try it out here again.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Happy Anniversary
Well, it is after mid-night, but I think it still counts. July 12th is mine and Danny's 51st Ann. It's still a special day to me. And I can't help feeling it is a special day to him also.
With so many years gone by, I can't help but feel I am past the middle part of the length of time we have yet to be separated. The only thing about not having an other 25 - 26 years more here is that it would be a shorter time until we are together again.
It's really wonderful that we have such a wonderful family that makes life so wonderful. There is always special and sweet things happening and to look forward to. I feel certain that he knows what is going on in the family and how it has grown. I know he is as proud as I am about each and every one. But I do look forward to when we can share together all the wonderfulness of our family together.
The world has changed so much during these past few years I wonder what it well be like when we are together again. Of course we will have a small baby to start over raising. What special joy that will be.
The time for all that will be the Lord's desistion, when ever it shall be for now I still wish I could tell Danny Happy Anniversary Dear and My Love Forever and Forever.
With so many years gone by, I can't help but feel I am past the middle part of the length of time we have yet to be separated. The only thing about not having an other 25 - 26 years more here is that it would be a shorter time until we are together again.
It's really wonderful that we have such a wonderful family that makes life so wonderful. There is always special and sweet things happening and to look forward to. I feel certain that he knows what is going on in the family and how it has grown. I know he is as proud as I am about each and every one. But I do look forward to when we can share together all the wonderfulness of our family together.
The world has changed so much during these past few years I wonder what it well be like when we are together again. Of course we will have a small baby to start over raising. What special joy that will be.
The time for all that will be the Lord's desistion, when ever it shall be for now I still wish I could tell Danny Happy Anniversary Dear and My Love Forever and Forever.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Special Day! Great News
Wednesday was such a special day. Though it was not July 7th it was July 8th. The 7th was Wendy's Birthday, but do to her calender already taken we had to wait until the next day to take her to lunch. All of her sisters and myself. It was great. Char had gotten some big balloons with Happy 50th Birthday on them. Yes, my beautiful, little first born, baby turned 50. That is so very had for me to but into place. It just couldn't be that many years. She got some really cute cards from her sisters.
Chris (as planned) call and was on the speaker phone so he could hear us all and join in singing Happy Birthday to her when the entire staff at the Marie Calendars Restaurant came over and join us in singing. It was really awesome. We could not have planned it that good.
I think she really enjoyed it.
Later that day we got good news from Amy on her blog that things went really well with the procedure for Calvin. The Doctor was able to determine the right medicine for Calvin that would make his mussels work correctly. This is the super best news. They (Chris and Amy)have struggled so long trying to get the right help he needed, and now their hard good faith and prayers have been answered.
There was still one more test the Doctor needed to know just the right amounts, I guess. They have been waiting there in at the Mayo Clinic in hopes that there would be an opening so they could get him in, and they were able to do it today. So he now has the right medicine and Amy said he was getting stronger real soon after taking it. How Wonderful, Wonderful.
I have not been able to go over to see Paul for the last few days. I went to the Doctor over some problems I had and found out it is a Strep infection. So I will have to wait a couple more days.
Chris (as planned) call and was on the speaker phone so he could hear us all and join in singing Happy Birthday to her when the entire staff at the Marie Calendars Restaurant came over and join us in singing. It was really awesome. We could not have planned it that good.
I think she really enjoyed it.
Later that day we got good news from Amy on her blog that things went really well with the procedure for Calvin. The Doctor was able to determine the right medicine for Calvin that would make his mussels work correctly. This is the super best news. They (Chris and Amy)have struggled so long trying to get the right help he needed, and now their hard good faith and prayers have been answered.
There was still one more test the Doctor needed to know just the right amounts, I guess. They have been waiting there in at the Mayo Clinic in hopes that there would be an opening so they could get him in, and they were able to do it today. So he now has the right medicine and Amy said he was getting stronger real soon after taking it. How Wonderful, Wonderful.
I have not been able to go over to see Paul for the last few days. I went to the Doctor over some problems I had and found out it is a Strep infection. So I will have to wait a couple more days.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Where Did It Go
I know a lot has been going on the last few days, but I am still surprised it's been a week since I wrote. The 4th of July weekend us unbelievable. Josef and Sarah two of my grandchildren used my car and drove me down to Sierra Vista to Chris and Amy's. Dana, Chris and Amy's daughter was getting Baptised on July 4th and most of the family were going down there. It's a 3 1/2 to 4 hour drive from Phoenix to Sierra Vista.
When we arrived and got out of the car we all went aw! The temperature was beautifully comfortable and there was a slight breaze. It was wonderful. We all hurried and changed clothes and rushed to the church for the baptism.
Dana looked so sweet and proud. Chris Baptised her and confirmed her. He look proud too. The spirit was lovely.
Then we all return to Chris and Amy's and got a bit to eat. Everyone was having such a good time. Chris kept apologizing for it being so warn, it was about 85 degrees. Up in Phoenix it was about 108. We just laughed at him.
Later we all went into town and a park where we had sort of a picnic and sat out on a large grassy area and waited for the firework show. As we visited and waited I couldn't help but notice all the large family groups like ours gathered all over the park. People were all playing with their kids with Frisbees and balls. Everyone was having a wonderful time. There was no sign anywhere of people not acting nice no troubles at all. Just happy fun. It was wonderful.
When the firework show began it was unbelievably beautiful. There is no question that it was the most beautiful one I have ever seen.
Everyone were talking about next year when we come back to see the fireworks. It was great.
After we all gathered again a the Null's for ice cream.
Dear Amy and Chris asked for us all to come even though she and Calvin were leaving early Sunday morning to fly to Mayo Clinic back east to see if they could help Calvin with his nerve and muscle problem. What a family!
Everyone was very helpful at their house and they got of very early in the morning, after being up very late the night before.
We then all went to Church and then returned to the Null's for lunch and change of cloths and visited together for a while and then we were all off to head home and 108 degrees.
It was wonderful and I shall never forget this weekend. On the way home, Sarah drove for the first part, which turned out to be a scenic route in the mountains. We were following LLoyd and Elaine's car. Sarah had never drove under those conditions before. She did really well. They both did and I am so grateful to them. And the motel room that was paid for by Amy and Chris and LLoyd and Elaine. What a Family.
Josef and I visited Paul Friday evening. Josef had not been able to get over for awhile, but to our surpise he knew it was Josef and they had a nice visit. Josef ofcourse did not of the talking but Paul responded with laughter and smiles. It was really nice to see Paul like that, enjoying others.
When we arrived and got out of the car we all went aw! The temperature was beautifully comfortable and there was a slight breaze. It was wonderful. We all hurried and changed clothes and rushed to the church for the baptism.
Dana looked so sweet and proud. Chris Baptised her and confirmed her. He look proud too. The spirit was lovely.
Then we all return to Chris and Amy's and got a bit to eat. Everyone was having such a good time. Chris kept apologizing for it being so warn, it was about 85 degrees. Up in Phoenix it was about 108. We just laughed at him.
Later we all went into town and a park where we had sort of a picnic and sat out on a large grassy area and waited for the firework show. As we visited and waited I couldn't help but notice all the large family groups like ours gathered all over the park. People were all playing with their kids with Frisbees and balls. Everyone was having a wonderful time. There was no sign anywhere of people not acting nice no troubles at all. Just happy fun. It was wonderful.
When the firework show began it was unbelievably beautiful. There is no question that it was the most beautiful one I have ever seen.
Everyone were talking about next year when we come back to see the fireworks. It was great.
After we all gathered again a the Null's for ice cream.
Dear Amy and Chris asked for us all to come even though she and Calvin were leaving early Sunday morning to fly to Mayo Clinic back east to see if they could help Calvin with his nerve and muscle problem. What a family!
Everyone was very helpful at their house and they got of very early in the morning, after being up very late the night before.
We then all went to Church and then returned to the Null's for lunch and change of cloths and visited together for a while and then we were all off to head home and 108 degrees.
It was wonderful and I shall never forget this weekend. On the way home, Sarah drove for the first part, which turned out to be a scenic route in the mountains. We were following LLoyd and Elaine's car. Sarah had never drove under those conditions before. She did really well. They both did and I am so grateful to them. And the motel room that was paid for by Amy and Chris and LLoyd and Elaine. What a Family.
Josef and I visited Paul Friday evening. Josef had not been able to get over for awhile, but to our surpise he knew it was Josef and they had a nice visit. Josef ofcourse did not of the talking but Paul responded with laughter and smiles. It was really nice to see Paul like that, enjoying others.
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